mistaquiji
07-26-2004, 05:28 PM
It's long, not really poetry just shit that rhymes. Should I give this
to the girl in this poem? thanks if u respond. I wrote this before i actually heard you never know
by imortal technique...cuz one line almost sounds identicly to one of his lines...so u dont think
im biting.
9 months ago was the first time I have laid
eyes on paradise. My heart jumped out of place seeing such a sweet smile accompanied by
those ocean blue eyes. I quickly walked away from this wonderland confused by my weakness
as my hands trembled and my voice stuttered when I tried speaking to her. I was embarrassed
when these incidents occurred so I avoided this woman and carried along being speechless.
She always had me blushing beat red like a kid with a crush and not desiring for this angel to
witness me so defenseless, I always discovered my presence running in the opposite direction.
Although I kept distant I couldn’t keep her out of my mind. Her inner and outer beauty slashed
scars inside. Over time this mysterious woman slowly became the air that I breathed. Suddenly
needing her for existence I survived the only way I could by running to her in my dreams. All I
had to do was close my eyes and my imagination would paint a perfect picture, always holding
her body tight while I was deep asleep, but when I awoke she continuously disappeared.
During my prayers I held off my blessings always asking the lord first, what do these feelings
that cloud over my skies mean? Later to find my self thinking about this mysterious women non
stop continuously, and every single day it was hell, so much feelings trapped inside but
couldn’t tell this stranger how I felt. Not an hour passed on the clock where my mind wouldn’t
be thinking about that perfect smile. To many ticks on the hands over time caused damage, I
use these words because I couldn’t manage to sleep at night, at times crying and suffering
deep inside, waiting for a response from God on my questions why? Why do you pour these
feelings on me that I can’t let go? why do I experience such painful feelings for this wonder
that I hardly even know? Possible I’m a psycho with obsessions, Hypnotize in a goddess’s
beauty, but eventually the lord answered my blessings. The request to change the way I
thought about her and get on with my life. For the next three months it was unbelievable I
actually could say hello to this still unfamiliar girl. I still desired to be smothered in her love and
vision us together in occasional dreams but nothing to the extreme as before. I actually began
to understand her better which was really enjoyable.
My life carried along alright
until one night at a local club when we met and she asked me to dance. I must have appeared
foolish frozen in fright unsure how to react. She gently placed her arms around my body when
the sudden crash nailed me causing the feelings to enhance. The realization of those were the
same arms I vision cuddled and wrapped around me every night. Those were the exact same
lips I vision myself softly kissing under the bright shining stars and moonlight. Happiness was so
physically close, ignoring the fact a companion was already at her home. I wanted to pretend
she was my girl, hold her body tight while never letting go. As every second ticket by that
wonderful night the stronger my feelings grew. Feeling so comfortable and at home with this
stranger I hardly even knew.
Sense that moment the buried curse has resurrected
to haunt me, finding myself thinking what could be, discovering tears dripping down my
cheeks, fisting my hands in anger at reality. I try to convince myself she isn’t my type. It’s just
possible that I could be right. How ever there is no cure or prescription for this addiction. Still
kneeling while asking the lord what these feelings mean? Could my life be a story like the great
one’s that where written, where the main character receives his queen in the end? However I
coped with reality within and that there is no magical fairy tail coming true for me. So I when I
pray I no longer ask the lord for her love, instead ask him to end this painful misery. No not for
my the end of my life, though It seems that I cant truly live without her, but to end these
feelings for this angel I hardly even know. Because I discovered I can’t settle for paradise if it
only exists in an imaginary world.
to the girl in this poem? thanks if u respond. I wrote this before i actually heard you never know
by imortal technique...cuz one line almost sounds identicly to one of his lines...so u dont think
im biting.
9 months ago was the first time I have laid
eyes on paradise. My heart jumped out of place seeing such a sweet smile accompanied by
those ocean blue eyes. I quickly walked away from this wonderland confused by my weakness
as my hands trembled and my voice stuttered when I tried speaking to her. I was embarrassed
when these incidents occurred so I avoided this woman and carried along being speechless.
She always had me blushing beat red like a kid with a crush and not desiring for this angel to
witness me so defenseless, I always discovered my presence running in the opposite direction.
Although I kept distant I couldn’t keep her out of my mind. Her inner and outer beauty slashed
scars inside. Over time this mysterious woman slowly became the air that I breathed. Suddenly
needing her for existence I survived the only way I could by running to her in my dreams. All I
had to do was close my eyes and my imagination would paint a perfect picture, always holding
her body tight while I was deep asleep, but when I awoke she continuously disappeared.
During my prayers I held off my blessings always asking the lord first, what do these feelings
that cloud over my skies mean? Later to find my self thinking about this mysterious women non
stop continuously, and every single day it was hell, so much feelings trapped inside but
couldn’t tell this stranger how I felt. Not an hour passed on the clock where my mind wouldn’t
be thinking about that perfect smile. To many ticks on the hands over time caused damage, I
use these words because I couldn’t manage to sleep at night, at times crying and suffering
deep inside, waiting for a response from God on my questions why? Why do you pour these
feelings on me that I can’t let go? why do I experience such painful feelings for this wonder
that I hardly even know? Possible I’m a psycho with obsessions, Hypnotize in a goddess’s
beauty, but eventually the lord answered my blessings. The request to change the way I
thought about her and get on with my life. For the next three months it was unbelievable I
actually could say hello to this still unfamiliar girl. I still desired to be smothered in her love and
vision us together in occasional dreams but nothing to the extreme as before. I actually began
to understand her better which was really enjoyable.
My life carried along alright
until one night at a local club when we met and she asked me to dance. I must have appeared
foolish frozen in fright unsure how to react. She gently placed her arms around my body when
the sudden crash nailed me causing the feelings to enhance. The realization of those were the
same arms I vision cuddled and wrapped around me every night. Those were the exact same
lips I vision myself softly kissing under the bright shining stars and moonlight. Happiness was so
physically close, ignoring the fact a companion was already at her home. I wanted to pretend
she was my girl, hold her body tight while never letting go. As every second ticket by that
wonderful night the stronger my feelings grew. Feeling so comfortable and at home with this
stranger I hardly even knew.
Sense that moment the buried curse has resurrected
to haunt me, finding myself thinking what could be, discovering tears dripping down my
cheeks, fisting my hands in anger at reality. I try to convince myself she isn’t my type. It’s just
possible that I could be right. How ever there is no cure or prescription for this addiction. Still
kneeling while asking the lord what these feelings mean? Could my life be a story like the great
one’s that where written, where the main character receives his queen in the end? However I
coped with reality within and that there is no magical fairy tail coming true for me. So I when I
pray I no longer ask the lord for her love, instead ask him to end this painful misery. No not for
my the end of my life, though It seems that I cant truly live without her, but to end these
feelings for this angel I hardly even know. Because I discovered I can’t settle for paradise if it
only exists in an imaginary world.